During this attachment, I have met many different kind of patients with different conditions. The reasons for their conditions may vary from the usual bio, psycho, social issues, which I am entrusted not to discuss with anyone. But no matter what the reasons is, nobody has the rights to infer them from their conditions. Nobody should be judging, classifying or even treat them differently.
I feel that people with mental disorder is no different than the average us that have points which differ ourselves from others. What infuriates me most, is that people that is able to function better than them, people like you and I, considered themselves as 'normal' whereas they are 'abnormal'. Then can I ask, everybody is so different, what makes anybody think they are so normal? There are people that can run faster, jump higher, study better, but there is always someone that is even faster, even higher and even better. Why put anybody down, just because you are better? Trust me when I say, there are people out in the world, outside the walls of the institute of mental health, that act far worse than those people that they claim 'insane' in there.
Hear me out: Nobody wishes to be in there, nobody ever wants to be in that condition. But when they are, it is because nobody cared or loved them the way they hoped to be. If they had a choice, do you think they would choose to be in this state?
I had depression, which might relapse for a short while here and there. But if i have a choice, I know I would not be like this.
One patient asked me, how did I came out of my depression. I then realized the unconscious reason why I love my name (nickname) so much. Jarica, but people call me Jar. I told my patient this: everybody have a Jar inside of them. This Jar collects negativity, be it negative emotions, feelings or thoughts. Whenever we feel sad, angry or sometimes even irritation, all these are collected inside the jar. Bit by bit, this jar inside us filled up with all our negativity. But depression is caused when the negativity is filled to the rim of the Jar and yet, more negativity is continue to add into the Jar, causing it to overflow. This is depression.
How did I came out of it? By writing, i told her. She asked me how does writing helps? I replied, saying that the Jar is overflowing with negative contents, the only way to empty the contents is to take it out of your system. It is near impossible for us to feel genuinely happy or the smile and laugh in this condition, so I write out my feelings and emotions to take it out of my system. Thus, instead of building up in the Jar, it is expressed in pen and paper. Haha, I have 7 diaries, 1 blog, 1 wattpad, 1 penzu, 1 tumblr and 1 twitter. These are all my methods of relieving the negativity in me, to take myself out of depression. I write, it may not be in fantastic English or that it may not even makes sense at all, but when I know what I wrote and I understand how I felt. Even if everybody else do not.
What I am just trying to say is that everybody is different, some might be luckier that the rest but that does not give anybody the right to judge anybody just base on what they have, because that is definitely not all that they can offer the world. And especially if they can teach me such many valuable lessons.
Some can say that maybe because I am similar to them, so I can understand them. But you are wrong. Nobody is able to understand anybody completely, I can't and you can't either. However, I do understand the feelings and emotions of being judge, being despised and disliked because of a condition I never wished to have. I hated the feeling, so I will not let myself treat anybody else the same way. The love, the care, the compassion, where are those now?
Please, tell your friends and families to stop judging and stigmatizing mental conditions. We are not all the same even though it is the same diagnosis and definitely not something to be look down upon. We are not abnormal, we are just cracked and a little broken that wishes to get better; better life, better sights. Please spread the message, stop stigmatization. #StopStimatization #Loveforthebetter #abetterlifeMH
Thank you for reading this post of mine. I have never been more sincere and felt so much emotions running over me trying to opt for a better life for those that had suffered. I just really think they deserve it. So please, sincerely please, let them have it. The better life they wanted. Just pray, hope and wish for them. *Bows*
