July, August, september, october, november

Its Over, finally O-VER!!

5 years in Jvss, at that particular day it finally came to an end. My O level is finally finished. I'm not happy leaving all the teachers and memories behind but, feel my pain, i had an extra year to 'live in' the memories already. So i think i ought to be happy that i can finally graduate from secondary school. Even though i have no idea what the results will be, but i have faith and trust that i won't do... that badly. kekeke. 

I'm sad to leave my classmates behind. Afterall, they did learn and grow with me for the 2 years i was left behind. The things that they do and the experince of being with them is really enjoyable at times and irritating at other times but, we gone through all that together, there would have been some feelings inserted. There were bitter, sweet and sour memories but all those have been part of my growth process and i think if i look back, there is already plenty of stories to tell the future. these memories are my pillar of support; whenever i feel like dying, again, i shall look back and remember what all these people taught me. Then, i will probably think twice about ending myself.

Well, i started working recently and it is really as the adults claimed: Tiring with a capital T. Hahaha but i guess my case is different as i feel it tiring because its quite... boring. I guess i shan't put where i work here as it attracts unexpected visitors -.- Haha Don't get me wrong, i do like visitors, but just not those that... umm.. distracts me i guess. it is really a great experience to learn and study. Jiayous to me then. Ganbette ne.

My best friend here also started work as most of you know, at starbucks. I feel sorry for her as her workplace is so far away from her house but at the same time, i feel lucky that it is so near to my gramps place and my workplace. I really enjoyed having brunch and dinner with her and after dinner, we would go to Paradise 2 to shop and chat/complain. I really love having her around as she feels and think the same way as i do. That makes our communication much more easier and our hearts closer.

Communication means a lot to me.

Went to see Thor 2 with Mary and it was awesome. But Mary acts like a bunny who needs occasional human touch... He wont let go of my hand during the whole movie. I shall not reveal the details. But Thor 2 was AMAZING! Love Thor and Love Loki! #teamthor #teamloki FTW!

Oh yeah, despite my crazy schedule, i went out with Erin and Joy to AFA! Anime festival Asia. Saw many cosplayer and many are quite cute, but i think i'm attracted to the girl cosplayers more. Haha.

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

(My favourite picture from that day aside from the one below)

Went out with the bunch because its ROY'S BIRTHDAY!! Happy Birthday Oily! Well, shall write a short message to him then.

Dear ROYLEE,

Haha, its my honor to be your friend. To me, you are a great friend too! Thanks for your strong shoulders and awesome advices. we always think that Aloy and you never take anything seriously but actually both of you do, just that you guys chose to jokingly take it in front of us. Sometimes to not let us worry, sometimes to just let us have fun by teasing you guys. Thank you so much. My greatest impression of you was all the times when you stood up and tried to stand up for me; remember that time when i got retained, Aloy and you tried not to mention it in front of me also, you tried to comfort me. All these times that you guys tried yur best to help me, i noticed. I appreciates it all so much.

Thank you, from the pit bottom of my heart.

The wind is howling like the swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in
Heaven knows I tried

At times when i can't smile, did not know how to smile. You came in and taught me how, so effortlessly. Making me fall so easily. But you left without a sound and expects me to be able to handle it. The moment you left, you made me a motionless Devil. A sadist by nature, a masochist by heart. Slitting wrist or other body parts seemed to be a daily routine. The urge to torture and play with the heart and soul of others is overcoming me slowly, willingly.

Tell me, for I am an Angel. A Hell Angel. 

让我当我们的火焰天使好吗？

The snow blows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the queen
The wind is howling like the swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in
Heaven knows I tried

Don't let them in, don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know
Well now they know

Halloween carnival 2013, 261013

May the angels above and the demons beneath grant us the wish of being together as friends for eternity even if we left the edge of earth.

Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Met with her during the Os to study. We ended up camwhoring and talking about our lives.

You said that our lives may differ now but it will soon be the same next year when i enter polytechnic.

I said that it differ from the moment i retained and it will and probably never ever be the same as yours, for you will excel within the time i delayed.

Curtain's call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made

(This is a clue for where i work)

Don't wanna let you down
But I am spell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't want to hide the truth

They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I want to save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how