Anybody feeling like this? The long holiday for the poly year ones is coming to an end.
Honestly, I am feeling this way right now.
Moving on, I guess everybody would have been to their own individual orientations already, so how was it? Let me share mine with you guys.
This is so candid, I can't even. Somebody threw that balloon, I didn't realized until I saw the shot which is like the day after. XD So proud of this shot, goodness.
So, I had 3 days of orientation; touring the school, bonding with my future mates and having fun. Well, which of the 3 I actually achieved, umm, I toured the school and I tried bonding in the fun. Tried. I proved that now, I am not exactly as sociable as people say I am. I met some people and I guess I made some friends and acquaintances. What I realized is that my course is going to be hard, tough and difficult at times but you know what, to show those people that thinks I'm too very pampered or spoilt, I'm going to show them I can go through this 3 years enduring, learning and enjoying.
I'm going to work hard, I promise.
One of my seniors leading the group shared this. Yeah, I know that I've talked about being Devil and being dark and all but, that my personality. What I do with my hands and heart doesn't need to be as broken. Some people say that if I am a Devil or a Demon, I'm the nicest one they know and will never acknowledge. Their words not mine. Well, can't I have my own style of fitting in? I want to help those who need help, I want to support those who had been like me and I want to be in service for those who ever felt anything I once feel. I've been through a lot, and I know I do not want anybody to feel the same way. psychically, mentally or emotionally.
I took this picture when I went back to my farm paradise in Malaysia during the Ching Ming festival. I thought it was just a coincident but now, I find it a beautiful coincidence.
Lilies are flowers usually for a funeral related events as it symbolizes innocence that had been restored to the soul of the departed. But lilies in such events comes in white, this is salmon pink.
My grandfather that has been living there for 3/4 of his life on that farm, has never seen growth of this plant on his farm before. Even though it maybe a coincidence, I believe this to be a type of support from my dead grandmother who I think believes that I can do it.
Thank you.
P.s, I shall update the post on my holidays and a very special someone birthday soon. Stay tune for the darkness, gore and emoing soon. keke. That's more like me isn't it. :D
