This is freakin' annoying...I am guessing that i'm mentally retarded. Or i'm just wimpy.
Wednsday, July 4th. 04072012.
Went to school as per normal. Was actually super happy before PE thou before morning assembly Lf rejected to helping me draw the introductive paper (i'm sure she have her reasons), then it was recess. Did troubles came or something? Honestly, I don't know. I just felt after recess that the world was against me, starting from my addiction to Big Bang. Their concert is nearing and i am always one step late from everything. Then there was the class whom i think still didn't accept me, felt so alone and scared. Everytime someone whispers or everytime someone laugh, i would think i'm the cause, its called being paranoid right? I don't know. Jealous of everybody and feeling pathetic for myself seems to have become a habit. I'm like a person with no backbone, spine or whatsoever. Feeling pathetic for myself again. Then there's this girl, she seems rich. She is always getting what people can't have and making others jealous. But here's one thing, i believed she could get me something that i crave; Concert tickets!!!!!! Easily, she open up the price to be $600, with tickets + backstage pass. She can easily say $600 because she's rich but i don't have that kind of money. I do not want to be a financial burden to my parents. Probably i was too tired. I don't want to believe i cried for something so minor. But i did.
An addiction that became a dream. The feeling of a Dream being shattered.
"I will go on without her(it), like a fool who's too sure. I'm like a bird without her wings, a fire without its flame. I don't know how to be strong, when my life has to move on. I'm like a song, without a soul, now that she's(it's) gone, what's left of us is this song"