So, why am i so damn fucking scared to be alone? I thought i overcame that fear already. Well, I thought.
But the question that is always ringing in my head is, why can't i stand being alone... at all? WHY?
I seriously don't know. I'm just upset about myself and how i can never stand up for me. i poked 6 holes in my leg for relieve of stress through blood with a needle. yes, i have psychological problems with emotional and physical problems, i'm basically a freak woth the seven curses in the world. I think in my previous life, i must have been the one who opened the Pandora's box and this now is my punishment by letting me feel the curses i let out in the world. I don't blame anybody for my misfortunes and mishappenings but myself.
My world is like a long long long passageway filled with lights, i was urgent and went to relieve myself. The next i know, when i open the toliet door, the passageway is pitch black. Now, i have no idea how long is the passageway, how long i need to keep wallking till i see a light. i fear if i keep walking, i'll get used to the darkness and be blinded by the light.
I just wanna say I'm Sorry.
