Sorry i took so long to update, but recently the statistics of viewers were kind of shocking. In a good way, thank you! You guys are so awesome!!
Anyways, getting back to the post, what is the anniversary of the forgotten?
Let me explain to you. People that have been reading my posts since 12345 years ago (i do not know how long, but i know its quite long ago..), would know that i once fell in love so deeply, it lasted one sided-ly for 8 years. Yes, it was a guy, knowing some would doubt as i am quite the feminist. 2 years ago on this day, i promised myself to treat myself better in a sense that i would bury the feelings for him in the bottom of my heart and try to forget him. So i labelled the 12th of February my anniversary of the forgotten.
Did i honestly forget him? Till this day, honestly, my answer would be no.
I guess that is the truth as i probably will never forget this guy, ever. But that does not mean the feelings are the same. I have learnt something; that if you cannot forget the one you ever loved, do not bother forgetting him/her, keep the feelings buried in your heart and take it as an experience or the nutrients fueling your life (quote directly translated from 'Fated to love you'). So why did i labelled this day as anniversary of the forgotten, when i did not forget him? Well, simply because it is just a day to remind myself that i have not forgotten him. Such ironic, but true.
You guys want to know something(s) even more contradicting? (1) His initials are way too common in Singapore; car number plates, buildings and other people initials as well. Every time i am on the road or passing by some places, i will be reminded of him with every encounter with his initials.
(2) I keep wishing and praying that some day, coincidentally, i would met him. Maybe like going home from school, i accidentally bumped into him for walking at God's speed, or he would turn up somehow by coincidence and smile when he sees me. (Gosh, my heart is thumping so loudly)
(3) Last and probably the worst way if i was trying to forget him, the anniversary of the forgotten is between Valentine's and his birthday. Most awkward and unconscious part, Valentines day - (minus) His birthday = (equals) Anniversary of the forgotten.
Well done, Jar! Well, well, what an awkward situation. >////<
I do not know what the others think, but i sort of felt that this is God's way of trying to tell me not to forget him. But whether it is false hope given by fate or torture, i leave that to your thoughts.
But alas, we just were not fated enough, not that he minds though, like i said, it was only me all these while. I am okay now, but i figured my heart turned Elsa-cold, let's hope that someone teaches me to love again before i turn full 'Elsa' mode. XD
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